Tag: Guilt

In Search of Self

In Search of Self Over the years I’ve learned that the most potent of personal feelings can be the most consoling and relatable to other people who are going through their own hardships. So without even knowing it, you can touch the lives of…

It’s Been A While

It’s Been A While August 19, 2016 I haven’t posted anything on here in quite some time.  Furthermore, I haven’t typed anything extensive that would garner being posted.  The year 2016 has been a harsh one, not just for me, but also for other…

Anger, Violence, Death, and Regret

“No man is angry that feels not himself hurt.” – Sir Francis Bacon Anger, Violence, Death, and Regret I can remember when I had just begun my teenage years. Back in those days, and earlier, I had an affinity for animals. I revered them…

In My Own Words

**Note: this essay was written in 2012, I no longer identify under the label “gay”.  The word has too many restrictions, connotations, stereotypes and unintended meanings. July 2, 2012 In My Own Words It is fundamentally important to understand that people choose their religious…

The Man In The Mirror

July 17, 2011 “The man who never learns to face himself, will never know what it means to be free.” The Man In The Mirror I ask myself why it bothers me so much that there are groups of people who take a strong…

Two Journeys, One Life

March 27, 2011 I was born on the 14th of November 1985 to Catholic German Americans. On one August night in the year 1996, a black hand would descend upon me, leaving behind a scar that would forever alter the direction of my life….

At Peace With Goodbye

June 2007 Remembering you is never enough to smother the flame above my heart, memories of what has been will never be suffice to subside my desire to touch you one last time. Photographs of you do your presence no justice, this paper form…

Asylum of My Mind: A Beckoning to Darker Places

November 30, 2009 Asylum of My Mind: A Beckoning to Darker Places A subtle flickering of light in my head, a missed revelation to coming events. For a moment I think to myself that it’s nothing at all, just something for today. It won’t…

The Sun Will Rise Again

November 2007 The Sun Will Rise Again Reading about or hearing the stories of people who are or who once fought with depression makes me remember my own dark days. Looking back now, it’s hard to believe that I was once that far down,…

A Letter To My Sister

July 2007 (This letter has been edited for privacy reasons.) Dear Sister, I hope that this night of July 24, 2007, my words can be of service to you, a glimmer of comfort upon your aching heart, a wave of love unbound, pouring forth…